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Every since my dad's death in 1990, I have been a binge eater. It has been an ongoing struggle to break free from. I took his death very hard because I grew up never knowing my father's love. I felt he was always disappointed in me. At first I would eat just a little Ding-Dong here and a little soda there. I was at a size 9/10 and about 130 pounds. As I kept eating I shot up to my highest weight of 250 pounds. I felt trapped like there was no way out. I had tried everything I could to escape. Except for the obvious thing: Ask God to help free me from this addiction.
Sunday morning at church I came to a place where I had enough and told God I need his help. I can't do this on my own. I have tried diets, cutting out foods, skipping meals and even taking a course Christian based in hopes of recovering nothing worked.
I went forward to be prayed for.
After church We went out to eat. Before I would eat my own food plus my daughters. That day I ordered a popcorn chicken with no extras and a water. I was full and satisfied. I've been this way for 4 days now. I will tell you with binge eating it takes an act of God to break you free.
I wanted to bring some encouragement to those who may be going through this. I've been there it was a long 17 year battle. I felt trapped in from 15 to 32 years old. I am not only down to a size 16 W but almost to a 16 regular. I am eating properly and exercising 6 days a week. I am losing a lot of weight and feeling good. I am doing the mentorship course at the Lord's table so that I can help and encourage someone else in their struggle. I am walking in victory from this addiction and in the freedom God has given me.
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Hi: I commend you for your bravery in speaking out about your journey. It's hard to admit the hurt that lurks inside, but you did it! You will be helping others with what you have said. I know that the experiences we have are not meant to cause regrets but are instead a means of caring for others thru what you will be able to share as a result.
Food addiction gets just plain nasty at its worst. At best, it's still a chain around your ankle. I applaud you so much for seeing what was happening and for calling it out. That is most of the problem: just recognizing it. You are doing well and will continue to do well!
A friend of mine said, "Never give up. Once you do, you lose." NO ONE likes to lose! And you won't. Love yourself best. You will win!
Binge Eating
Great post! Although I am not a medical professional, however, according to your blog post, you have emotional pain, which is understandable after losing a loved one. Losing a parent is extremely difficult... I know, I've been there myself. You have done the right thing by asking God for His guidance and strength. Remember, God has great plans for all of us... and it's His blessing that you are losing the weight and on the road to wellness, healing, comfort and spirituality. Please continue to share your journey with the Alpha Women community, it's important that we band together and support each other. God Bless You!!!
Ellen R. Day
Keep up the good work!
Keep up the good work! I've always had a battle with food. I too must exercise at least 6 days a week and really watch what I eat. I will always be an emotional eater. I've learned that my eating plan is unemotional and that it requires my commitment because my emotions come and go. They always seem so real but they are not reality. God is real and his love for me is real. He wants me to be healthy and do well inspite of how I feel. My nasty habit of overeating is always just beneath the surface waiting for an opportunity to surface and take hold. My parents impacted my siblings and myself for the good and the not so good. They really have done their best. I need to watch what I dwell on because those emotions come in and leave me closed off from the world around me. When I am thankful for all the blessings that God has given me, life is rich and wonderful. Thank you for your sharing and God's blessings for your journey.
Keep up the good work!
Keep up the good work! I've always had a battle with food. I too must exercise at least 6 days a week and really watch what I eat. I will always be an emotional eater. I've learned that my eating plan is unemotional and that it requires my commitment because my emotions come and go. They always seem so real but they are not reality. God is real and his love for me is real. He wants me to be healthy and do well inspite of how I feel. My nasty habit of overeating is always just beneath the surface waiting for an opportunity to surface and take hold. My parents impacted my siblings and myself for the good and the not so good. They really have done their best. I need to watch what I dwell on because those emotions come in and leave me closed off from the world around me. When I am thankful for all the blessings that God has given me, life is rich and wonderful. Thank you for your sharing and God's blessings for your journey.