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"It's My Life"
This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud
It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
It's my life
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life
This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky
Got to make your own breaks
It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
It's my life
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life
Better stand tall when they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break, baby, don't back down
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Login or register to post a commentI decided to take control of my life!
O.K Ladies
Yes last Friday the 16th, early in the morning I decided to take control of my life back. At 9:30 a.m I was completely out of my home, moved out. Having only my own belongings with me, not any pieces of furniture included-since I didn't wanted anything to remind me that marriage-left my home.
Yayyy!
My husband got 2 equity lines out of house during the past 3 years and applied to the banks as a "single man" to get those loans.I had no idea till our second anniversary day. Anyway he got the house just before we got engaged, and I assume bank bent the rules regarding W2's. If you apply for a loan you need to prove your income right?We always filed jointly.Huh Wachovia didn't care I guess.So I knew I can't get anything out of house as cash.He opened up a small business on his name with loans. Thank God I am not responsible to pay back that loans.
I hired a lawyer same Friday afternoon, and a.s.a.p my hub is going to be filed.
Only our tax return check, signed by him was with me.During our marriage for 5 years he didn't even offered me giving my share back from our tax return checks, but this year I was very decidefull, had him sign and give it to me. I lied him to have him sign,so what?I paid my credit card with that. Every year he deposited our tax returns in to his Wachovia account, nobody asked if I wanted to, and the branch didn't even offered him to open a joint account,but basicaly I've spent to explain these to the Wachovia's different branches for first 2 days of my leave, and they all said no. So I decided to pay my cc with ourtax returns check, than worked
In the mean time he was keep calling me and leaving me scary messages.I never picked any of his calls.
I am sorry I am so tired, tomorrow I promise I'll write the rest.
Night night!
Be careful. Make sure you
Be careful. Make sure you are safe and protect yourself. Stay in touch with us.
Rest of my story
Now I am in Orlando, staying with my childhood friend, her two daughters,and their dog Browny! Safe,full of love and very busy big house.Came here yesterday.
My only concern is my son.Now he is living with his dad,a nanny,and dad's newly met,staying over for couple of nights a week girlfriend.Still it was so hard to offer me that extra room to stay for couple of weeks for our son's sake.Not because I wanted,just because my son's dad promised us.He said we could stay there, and changed his mind aboutmestaying there???!!! LP,my son, didn't want to let me go anywhere, it is drawning to explain him that I will be back and see him within days. So I drove 200 some miles to stay. Now LP is having a second trauma, he is so deeply sad.I couldn't bring him with me, because of his school, his diet(G/F,C/F,S/F and pure organic)and he gets scared of pets a lot.Basically, I didn't want to bother any of my friends with his Autism.
I can still do my business from here, but not being with my son is really hurting me.My mom was on the phone while I was driving, helping me out to feel stronger,and not crying, but in certain point she lost it,too.So did I. On my way up to Orlando I pulled in to every single service station on Turnpike,and cried out loud,washed my face,sit in my car,and practised some inhale/exhale breathing with a yoga.Than kept going.
I am strong, I can do it. My son is going to be fine with his dad for a while, than I'll go see him.
Will write more,writing is calming me down.
Thanks for this opportunity and concerning about me Freda.That feels good
That is so tough and
That is so tough and traumatic. I can't imagine the strength it took to leave your son behind. I can't imagine how difficult this situation is and the circumstances that you find yourself in.
There are no words to say to console you in this horrible time of grief but I offer some simple words, "hang in there." Don't give up. Something will turn around.
You are in our prayers and thoughts. Surround yourself with friends and family who care about you. Continue to share your thoughts here as we will support, listen and encourage you to keep on keeping on.
Best,
Freda
Hi! I am feeling better now.
God is helping me out,that is so good.Still sometimes I am whispering"God,thanks for counting on me this much and giving me so much challenges in my life,knowing only I could handle it. But sometimes I am wishing you didn't have to count on me this much."Mother Theresa.
Than answering back with another quote:God never promised us a smooth life,he promised us that he will be on our side when the challenges hits.
I am still in Orlando,one more time in my life realizing the importance of having wonderfull girl friends.My son had a haircut today,I arranged his appointment from here,his dad(my 1st husband) took him there.
Since I haven't picked up any calls from my husband-to be ex soon-he is not calling and hurting me anymore.This week he is going to be served with divorce papers.
Have a good weekend,and again,sincere appreciation for listening us!
Last Day of the School
I am safely moved in as a house mate with one of my girlfriends. They served the divorce papers to my soon to be ex hub on Tuesday. He is keep calling me,and I am keep not picking any of his calls.He has 20 calenderdays to response as the FL family law.Waiting..
My son is doing well with his dad, only he is missing the school a lot lately even today which was the last day of the school year. His dad is too busy with drinking, his new girlfriend and not working. Huh what a life,as a matter of fact after all these mistakes of mine to pick the wrong guys to get marry, my therapist told me that we need to start working on my side of the work: "Why Roz magnets sick men?".Am I a natural born healer? Wish:(
Anyway it is a good topic for me to work on,after gathering my life.
I am feeling much better after seeing how strong is my son,he adapts his life whoever he lives with, so he knows how to treat his dad,smart boy.Love him to death.He is my only reason to live.
TGIF ladies, have a wonderful one!
Roz
Roz, glad to hear everything
Roz, glad to hear everything is going well. You are holding on strong and we are proud of you. Glad to hear you are working with someone on your stuff. That is great! Also good to hear that your son is doing well.
keep us posted. You look fantastic in your picture!
xoxo,
Freda
Iron Man
We went to see the movie named Iron Man today. I and my son, he didn't even went to the bathroom once! Usually he goes three times during a movie. I loved to be with him and he loved the movie.When I tell him I don't have money to buy food in the theather, he doesn't even ask twice.Not that I can't,but I rather to bring his own junk food in my purse.Sweet corn, blueberry/mango icecream bar,and his juice. Years ago,first time we went to the movies with a lunch box and ice packs, security said no, but then I brought a note from his Pscychiatrist and nicely explained them, now they knows us.Sometimes they even let us to watch same movie for second time.
That was all I expected anyway.
I found a p/t job because my own business is too new and I need to keep my credit in a good shape.Helping me to clear my mind.Hitting the GYM couple of times a week, I even had a nice date last week it was fun
Life is going on. Have a wonderfull weekend you all!
Roz
Kung-Fu Panda
Last weekend we've seen the Kung-Fu Panda.Son wasn't in to it,but still cracked up couple of LOLs.I found a second job full-time, starting on Monday,but still working on my own small biz,other part-time job and my 3 credits College class.Summer B, and I wanted to take advantage of a short term.My both jobs are normal, simple hourly jobs.After spending couple of decades doing business with top fashion Italian designers you learn how to be happy with a pair of sneakers and flip flops
Today is my son's birthday.I don't have my equipments to bake and decorate a G/F,C/F,S/F birthday cake,so this year we are having icecreams!His Summer School starts on Monday atleast he is going to have some activities and fun till I get into my own house.I am hoping to clear my divorce case till September,than when the school starts we need to be ready and start being happy again.
Have a sunny,funny Sunday everyone!
Roz