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I couldn't let the end of the year pass and not say something to my fellow Alphawomen. I apologize for not writing more but the last few months I've had so many demands placed on me and so many changes that I simply could not focus and was unable to contribute effectively.

However, at the end of the year, with the cold breeze blowing in my window I think of how similar the wind and I are... the wind is intermittently strong, it is consistently blowing and it does not ask for permission. I suppose my life is similar indeed in that I too, am intermittently strong, consistently moving although I am often uncertain of my direction and my life does not ask for permission to be lived - it just does.

The person in my life that I have written about, albeit somewhat secretively, have come to a crossroads and I decided for both of us that he is unable to give me what I need right now. And it's not because he doesn't want to, the demands of his life dictate that right now, he simply can't. I decided that as much as I would miss a certain part of our life together, I would miss his friendship even more. If we decided to reduce our status to friendship, we still have a chance of preserving the love we shared with each other instead of potentially becoming resentful over a relationship that was becoming unfulfilling.

Subsequent to that, my work schedule was becoming intense and uncomfortable. Without giving the details, I was nervous about the company and how it was being managed and in my position, it was becoming a liability. I went to France for thanksgiving and returned to the announcement of "due to financial reasons, your position has been eliminated". It was bad news in that - gosh darn, I was being laid off right before the holidays but it was good news in that - God took me out of the burden I was feeling going to work every day.

In France, I reunited with a friend I met in Kenya in August 2007. If you've read my previous blog of my escape to Kenya after my life was threatened in Uganda, the person is mentioned there. My friend, is younger with an incredibly old soul, and an irresistible calmness and warmth to him that is very attractive to me. And it is the strangest thing, to have been apart from someone for over a year, and the next time you meet them, you feel like you just went home. My trip to France, was indeed a memorable one and I expect to see a development in the friendship.

While unemployment is making me stir crazy after all but 3 weeks, I now have time to perfect my gym body, I have taken up cooking (big surprise to the entire world and myself) and I was recently admitted to the HR management Certification program...so ... in 3 weeks, for not doing what I was dreading, I was able to do 3 things I truly wanted to do. You won't hear me complaining.

2009 is a new year filled with possibility - a new president, new opportunities, new friendships, new relationships, new life.

2008 has taught me to be humble in my thoughts and to accept that God does plan and when we ask him for help, even though the answer may not be what we were hoping for, chances are, he's giving us something so much better.

May God's richest blessings be with you all on this last day of 2008 and may you find peace in your hearts, love in your life and success in all of your endeavors.

Alphawomen,it has been a pleasure.

Anje.